Friday Dec 12, 2003
Z: I LIVED TO TELL, TO SEE, TO BE
Z: I LIVED TO TELL, TO SEE, TO BE
12-11-2003
What I have learned is this: deliverance is a process. My first experience with deliverance was in the year 2000, when I fully surrendered my life to God, when I was broken and shattered to a point beyond suicide… I called out—and then I felt Him within my vessel, peering out of my eyes, moving my hands… a tingling sensation—he said these words to me: “I am Your Father… I will not leave you, nor forsake You.”
Before, whenever I was in trouble, I would say the Lord’s prayer and cry out to Him… He would always get me out of trouble, and so prayer was a constant companion of mine—but I did not have an experience as I did in 2000.
During the next few weeks, the Lord revealed to me the infallibility of the Word of God, and the Gospel. Though when you surrender to the Father, you surrender to Jesus… I was shown this, in eternity. That every godly person believes in Jesus… but how glorious is it for them to know this and find His Word, and serve Him… understanding that Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life, that no man comes to the Father except through Him (Jn 14:6). And so, for the first time the Holy Spirit was in me—with me, all about me.
I learned about my past, my shattered mind—I was shown all the satanists around me. The whole neighborhood, the handlers, the matrix, spiritual warfare. I was told that Daniel’s 70’th week began. But that it would not be as most people think—which I did not understand at the time.
I was shown all the satanic deception religions like Hinduism, Buddhism, and all the isms around the world.
I was shown my own lineage…. Understood that I was damaged beyond repair. Well, that is, in human terms.
I was told that I was “awakened” at this time—which was a pre-ordained time. That if I survived to this point without getting killed—being that I was always separate—then this would qualify me for a commission the Lord had ordained from the beginning for me.
This led of course to where things are today.
I was told that I would not be actually healed until the year 2004. And the recent deliverance sessions have not only kicked in, but literally cleared the way, and cleaned the clocks of all the demonic strongholds around me. Now, everything is being stripped away from me… as I am being prepared for something.
DELIVERANCE A PROCESS
And so, deliverance has been a process. From the initial healing, which led to my knowing who I am and what happened to me, a lifelong quest since I was mind-controlled, removed from Los Angeles in my teens, then in my 20’s set loose on the streets of Topeka Kansas with a belief system and memories that bore no relation to the satanic ritual abuse and exotic satanism from which I came, from which only one or two of us, with like spirit, survived.
The Lord protected me as I He awakened me. The church I was introduced to attempted to get me into satanism in fellowship groups, much to my shock and horror. I had thought, perhaps innocently, since I never had lived before…well, at least not an actual life… I thought that churches were sanctuaries of Jesus Christ! I thought, how wonderful I have found a shelter.
Little did I know that the same requirements in evil American society were required here. In exchange for selling my soul to Satan, I would receive fellowship, a roof over my head, and I would be considered born again in Christ.
I saw the same thing with Billy Graham and my heart broke. I saw the same with Chuck Smith of Calvary Chapel and my heart broke. Saw the same thing with John MacArthur and the Grace Church and it my heart broke. Saw the same thing everywhere I went. And I had to assimilate what all this meant. If not for the Lord, this information would have pushed me into the looney bin or worse! Just as it was when I was a child and couldn’t seem to catch on—I couldn’t catch on now either. The Lord had to gently help me understand…how could things be so backwards?—how could they believe that they were Christians?
I asked, “Lord, if satanism is a requirement, why do they even go to church?”
My Father said, “Son, it’s complicated…it’s deep.”
He told me that those who serve Satan are not born again in Jesus Christ—that they are in denial. That the entire Christian music scene is no different than the secular scene.
He showed me all the phony prophets and teachers and fringe end times sites on the net.
I said, Lord, I look just like them—talking about the system collapse and destruction.
He said, “This is real. They are not.”
To break this down, He was saying to me that they are not real because they are not SEPARATE, one of our Lord’s most fundamental requirements for serving Him in any capacity.
“So why are they all connected, Lord…why are they not separate?”
He said, those who are separate are cast out of society. Banished. Those who you see on the street corner, in mental hospitals, in jails.
This had been done to me—incarcerated, removed—and many murder attempts… I kept asking why they wanted to kill me, but never got an answer till the year 2000.
I honestly didn’t know what I had done wrong. I thought, could people be this mean? I had lived a life I did not understand—all I knew is that I was left out of things, kept out of things, told to go away. When I asked why they got upset.
When I asked why they said nothing, in many cases.
I had done my job—I had worked hard. I had been honest.
But there was no reason given.
Later I came to understand that if you’re not connected, you can’t really have a decent life.
Connected, later I was told, meant to sell your soul to Satan in exchange for a life upon the earth.
RESEARCH
I had studied Hinduism, Buddhism, all the eastern religions, philosophy, the Bible, many things—but until I was awakened to the situation upon the earth and the bondage man has placed himself in, I did not understand. I had been an alien all my life—and had been protected by the Lord all my life.
I had seen all the things my peers who were killed because they were good could not see. They were good because they could not understand what the world wanted from them. And so these innocent ones were killed by their parents.
Oh, they made it look like suicide—everyone participated in gaming them, bringing them to suicide on purpose; everyone played a part, and yes, they did kill themselves, not understanding how people could be so vicious, feeling as if they woke up in a different world than the one they were born into.
Something so different, that no research could explain it to them—you had to be awakened in order to “see”—and what is here is a SATANIC HIERARCHY that everyone is part of but no one talks about—because they feel guilty about killing. As my friends were killed.
But I got to live and see, in a way, for them. They were told they were scum—but they were better than others. They were told they were filthy—but they were clean. They were lied to, everywhere they turned—handled, lied to, led to slaughter, and my own mother cheers when this happens.
Well, not just her, but all of them.
To see that side of a human being, who would kill you and leave you for dead if he could get away with it—to see a whole world laughing at murdering innocent ones. To see the guy at the 7-11 relishing in gaming someone who doesn’t “know”—to see all the murders not accounted for on the rolls year by year…to see America for real.
To see the truth for real.
To see it all—as I have now seen, from a disconnected or alien perspective.
And then to rejoice in the Lord Jesus Christ—who gives me unfathomable joy despite all this!… well, you have to say it’s a miracle.
It’s a miracle that I am here—to tell you this. Many of you would not be here without the intervention and blessing of the Lord.
AMERICA, SOLD OUT
America, from one end to the other, is sold out to Satan. As I said before, the Lord spoke to me and said this is the most evil nation on the face of the earth, as it is the most satanic and wealthy. It’s not personal with Father—He’s no respecter of persons. It’s just a plain simple fact.
Whenever more than 5 people get together anywhere in this country in separation in Christ… one of them infiltrates and either breaks it up, or games it so that people are castigated for their faith. Jesus is persona-non-grata in America. America hates Jesus Christ. That’s what I’ve seen in all the churches. They worship Satan and call Him Jesus, then they are mind-controlled by the scriptures…in a kind of relative good/relative evil kind of manner. But they server Satan, they love Satan because Satan pays their bills.
Jesus is just a mascot in America—a front man. Satan gets the job done.
DAY OF RECKONING FOR AMERICA
Well, the eviliest nation on the face of the earth is about to get her comeuppance. Hallelujah. This is a joyous time for us who love the Lord and Truth. Because this judgment upon America will wake up untold millions, who will renounce satanism and understand what they did wrong.
I understand that many were corrupted generationally—by their parents, grandparents… schools, churches, etc. But there is no excuse. God is no respecter of persons. Most people here, most who label themselves Christians, if they do not repent, thus being separated in Christ, which is what BORN AGAIN means—it means separation and sanctification through the SUPERNATURAL… that’s what happens when a person is born again—you go from the womb (death in Satan), to the light (salvation in Christ, which is separation from the world system). No one separates himself—I was separated by Jesus from birth, by my story is somewhat unique and strange…not the norm.
Most people are connected. So they can go here and there and get a job, and make a life for themselves. Those who are separated must rely solely on Jesus for provision—most of us you’ll never hear from, because society has banished us. That’s because society worships Satan and calls it secular, atheist, the economy, or some such…but they’re in denial—behind the scenes, they obey their masters and instruct their slaves, as their minds are linked and orders come from the center.
It’s not America’s fault. Nations rise due to warfare—war or human sacrifice is rewarded. Without war, no nation can exist.
If I were a satanist, I would have perpetual war, and I would have plenty of God’s own to feed upon, rather than casting them out. That way, I would ensure perpetual stasis of society—a kind of game preserve of lambs… regulated so that the number does not go below 5 righteous in Sodom.
There is a numerical formula for this—you need to know the population of Sodom, or cities like that. But let’s say Sodom was 100,000 people, roughly. 10 righteous would be 1/10 of 1 percent.
I guess that’s about what lambs (separated ones, who were also the Nazarites of old) are. Now, those who came out of satanism and accepted Jesus and got separated from the system… this is more the second tier, or Tribulation Saints…but these are not like the Nazarites of old—they are more the spirit of the Saint Paul…the most marvelous apostle! Those separate from birth, who LIVED!…especially in murderous America, the most hostile place on the planet for the separated, the most intolerant nation on the face of the earth, the most satanic nation on the globe, which is a dry fact, not some emotive fantasy…those separated from birth, are like the Nazarites of old. Are the same spirit. It does not mean no marriage or job or being homeless….though the Nazarites of old may appear that way!… it means separate from birth…A MIRACLE OF GOD.
I came a long way to understand that I am a miracle—and all my brothers and sisters like me are miracles.
I used to think I was garbage—because that’s what my parents, friends, and everyone said about me. I have always felt like I was doing something wrong—like I shouldn’t even exist. Like I should just get out of the way and let the good people have the earth.
But now I realize that all those things were put in my head by people considered good—established. People you talk to everyday—they said I was wrong. Should die. Should go live in a garbage dump.
You know, many of those who are homeless are Nazarites of old. That’s how America treats God’s children. By putting them in garbage dumps, by lying and saying those in churches are the good Christians. Well, when I attended Calvary Chapel and really wanted to help, being a janitorial volunteer so I wouldn’t bother anyone—they threatened me and said, “We do not tolerate those who do not conform.”
I thought they meant my hair was too long! I thought they meant I needed to dress differently! I thought they meant something, but not THAT. Not satanism?
Later, I found out that they were just that. Yet I see Chuck Smith and others on TV talking about Harry Potter and…behind the scenes I know what’s going on.
Oh, the sorrow—… don’t they understand what satanism really is? It’s not just Harry Potter or witchcraft or new age prophets…
It’s the whole thing. All of it.
I pray this word finds you all in good stead. This is given to me at 5:00 AM on this glorious morning the Lord has made.
Let us rejoice in Him.